It’s getting more and more obvious. You don’t need me. You can be happy WITHOUT me. What I am doing still here? Am I just being dragged along ? I’m tired of this. I said to myself… show it to me that you care for me and you want to be with me. From what your actions means, you just don’t care anymore. I’m not worth fighting for now. We just keep filling ourselves problems and don’t even communicate, nor even stay together. You don’t show love anymore. Tell me man, stop making me feel awkward feelings. You know I have a limit too. If you simply don’t want me anymore, I’ll go away. I showed you that I really want to be with you, but if you don’t feel the same, we can’t be in a relationship. I know you won’t regret leaving this time. I can’t do shit for you. I can’t cook, I can’t speak chinese well like you, I’m small, no job, no money, totally useless, can’t even take care of you. Why would you want to be with me? I’m not worth fighting for anymore right ? Just fucking tell me. I’ll get better at so many points to please another woman if you don’t want me. You already have Siu I believe. Anyway, I think I’m the only one who wants to make this relation better, not you. You are done giving effort for this relation. I think it’s soon to say goodbye. My first lover … sigh … I thought that I wouldn’t ever leave you … guess I really have to think about this. I only wanted you, only you. But now, you made me feel this way. I just can’t stand it. I guess life really is a mystery and shouldn’t expect things AT ALL.