Sometimes , I just feel like , you are not wanting to be with me. You say stuff to make me feel good. What about your actions ? You told me … I don’t want to leave you … I love you too much … I’ll see you more at school. What you do ? Nothing. Just talking. You saying you miss me when you are with your friends. Doesn’t look like it. You know it’s kind of getting obvious you have something for Siu … I’m starting to feel that. Look how protective you are when I talk about him. And the thing I won’t forget. I said I’m bored at school nothing to do, why ? It’s because I only want to be with you. You told me to find something to do and you didn’t know how to do anything. … Lame man , you really don’t know what I’m thinking. You don’t get it. When are you going to get it that … I want to be with you ? You think it really doesn’t bother me that you go with Siu ? On the contrary , I’m looking at what you would choose. Either me or him. From what I see , if you have a chance to be with him , you’ll take it. Also , you seem to have lots of fun with him more than me. You guys look so cute together. I’m starting to get tired of this. You give me love only on special occasions or just rarely. When in front of your friends, it just looks like you don’t want them to know I’m your boyfriend. You don’t act normal. Tell me. Are you into Siu ? If yeah , just go to him. I really can’t change anything. I can’t say I’m better. I made a terrible mistake but that is now over, the problem is now you. You don’t get what we need in a relationship. He has money, swag , handsome , tall , makes you happy, always make you smile, you guys joke around, he knows your friends, you know his, he knows your best friend , you do activities with him that I can’t even do with you. He is just simply perfect for you. I’m feeling that. Look at now, we don’t show anything at school, only when I’m sad you will show some love , but you think that’s enough? In a relation , it’s not only on special days that we show love to our loved one, it’s everyday. Treat him like he’s a special thing, I do that. I treat you like my shiniest crystal that I will never let it break. Sometimes I just joke around, but sometimes, I really just want to let everything go. You seem to not care, I’m just there … A dog, barking at you, and you having fun. I’m suffering man, when I say it’s fine, it’s nothing. You really think I’m okay? I just want you to realize that what you are doing, is affecting me. You should notice soon. I swear, I believe that you only want Siu. You even told me … I can’t take him away from you. You told me to do other stuff on dinner time , you didn’t even had a thought about me spending time with you ? You only thought … dinner I’m busy. Why ? I’m with Siu. WTF MAN … Seriously, it’s either him or me. Yeah , I worked hard to get till here, we went through a lot. But when I’m starting to feel like it’s worthless, I’m going to back up. I’m getting tired. I want to be loved, not be rejected. I don’t play in love triangles either. The one whom really loves me, will be the one who always has time for me, feels bad and will act to make me feel better. Knows what she is doing wrong. Understands me. Listens to me. Talks and acts according to what she said. I’m not a player, you are the one whom I love the most , and I don’t intend to find anyone else. But if it’s really worthless , I’d take my time to choose the right one, I don’t like to play around. I want to build a family with the woman who will cherish me as I will. Anyway, keep going to Siu. I don’t care. Have fun with him. Sooner or later … I will have to act. I’m just being patient now. Seeing if you will notice anything. If you don’t, just stay with your lovely ex boyfriend. Be with him, anyway, I really can’t do anything. People tell me it’s already over between me and you, what you are doing is a form of disloyal already. But I keep on going. Why ? Because I love you. I hope you do too. You don’t reply my facebook messages, ignores me when I chat with you. We talk less and less. But I’m sure, you text so much to Siu. Wanting to go out with your “twin”. For in reality, you want to see Siu. Have fun with him. Tell me, when are we going to cook together ? Watch a movie together ? Do some sports together ? Anything a couple wouldn’t mind doing. YOU DON’T DO THESE WITH ME. I’M YOUR BOYFRIEND … AND I NEVER EXPERIENCED THESE … WHILE HE IS ONLY YOUR FRIEND … AND HE HAS WAY MORE. DON’T YOU THINK I SHOULD BE SEEING SOMETHING GOING ON ? He went there with you on boxing day, I asked why he could and I couldn’t and you lamely replied me , because he is a girl and I don’t like to shop with a guy, it makes me shy. Then when you are with me, you say you like to shop with me, because it feels like we are married and shopping together. Nice excuse there lady. Just … I’ll see how things go, I predict that … you are going to leave me for him. I just sense it. He has more privilege than me, he is more suited for you. You guys would make such a cute couple … why don’t you go back with him ? I know that you still love him. Your love with him never ended with a break, it just stopped because you guys couldn’t see each other. I can see flame sparkling in your eyes when you are with him. Anyway hunny, choose wisely. Him or me. Do the thing that you think it’s best for you. Leave me like that or cherish me. I’ll be the one who will act according to what you do. I’m a simple guy, I don’t require much. So just follow your path, I don’t want to follow you around, make your decision and I’ll adjust myself. I’m starting to get tired.