I don’t feel loved … really … you have problems … you went to your best friend. And not to me. I’m your boyfriend … I can’t even know what’s between you and her … For a fact … judging by the facebook statuses you post … it’s all related to me. I know the past still hunts you … you are always hesitating to be with me forever or not. not even forever. Just to be with me for a long time. You told me you don’t believe in forever. WE NEVER KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE. Hey … I’m feeling it… the feeling that I don’t want to feel. Yeah … breaking up. I don’t like to say this. I feel like that’s what you really want. You got hurt too much by me … Even if I changed now … I believe it’s too late. Even if I show you that I’m serious , it’s too late. Even if I show you how much I need you, it’s too late. Why ? Because of my mistake. What’s done is done. You are telling me you have nothing … and then … I look on Meli’s wall , people whom you trust … and it’s the other way around. I have an idea how hurt you got with me cheating on you. I’ve read so much things on tumblr … about cheating … I don’t know … I’m feeling so depressed … when you tell me that you are okay … while you are not. Here’s a little something.

Posted on Meli’s Wall :
i fucken love youuu ____________________?
you’re always there to support me :)
can i rape you next time (: ??
* pinky promise *
and btwwway , you’re sooo hooot ( y’know your bangs )
…hahaha jai le gout de te raape ?
ifknloveyou ?

Support you huh ? While I was asking , nothing seemed to work. And the worst thing, I knew you had something. Everything seemed so perfect moments ago. Now … in a bad mood … Wait no , you were sad , because of your mother … but there was more , the past came back , and hunt you. How I know ? Statuses , and how you reply me. I can feel it you know ? You were talking to me like you hated me ,took me as a stranger.  I really can’t help it … I’m giving my everything and you are not. I know … you will say , you did too and I cheated at the end. To tell you the truth … it’s not because I didn’t love you or anything,  I just wanted it. I knew there was that whore I could USE to get it. I didn’t want to rush you for that, and I admit , it was a big time error. Now, I’m not even thinking about having sex with you. YOU are the one who starts to tease me, remember that. I’m still regretting my mistake … yeah … If I really wanted to do it , I should of been patient. I was still young. 1 year may not seem a lot. But some people can change a lot in 1 year. And I did. I analyzed a lot.  I don’t like it … I don’t want to picture myself being with another girl. The one whom I want is only you. YOU … JUDY DIEP.  I’m not here for sex, I’m not there to abuse you, to use your money. I’m there for you. YOU . THE PERSON WHOM YOU ARE. I don’t care about beauty , I love your heart, the way you care, the way you act, the way you smile. Everything … I’m so sad that , I was the one who broke your heart … Making you change you thoughts about our relation … Before my mistake … you always said that we would be together forever and you meant it. Now … I’m sure you don’t. I’m so desperate … I had to be the one to make you change.
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