… Posted by Judy Diep 2 march 2011.

Ohh man … I just don’t even want to tell you how bad I am feeling when you wrote this. Hey .. my heart is pumping like crazy… Idk , I feel like , you are talking about our relation . We never know anything , but one day , it will end. I don’t want to … I want to keep writing this damn book with you. It will be incomplete, and our child will keep on writing in this book. Babe, just tell me … what happened … what are you thinking … I’m worrying like crazy … are you still wondering if I am the one for you … ? I know you can’t forgive what I have done … I wish I could undo everything I have done , and live a perfect relation with you … forever. If things aren’t working out , I simply will try to get everything right. I won’t give up , this is our relationship , it’s you and me , there’s no me and me. I’m always scared … the look in your eyes … the way you talk to me … Are you forcing yourself to love me ? Am I just thinking too much ? Did you really mean it ? When you said … I will trust you one more time . And stop thinking about the past ? People say … relationships in secondary school doesn’t last. Hey , I found my love of my life. I don’t intend to have another one. YOU are the one I need, I swear, you leave me … I don’t know what will happen anymore … I don’t even want a single glimpse of you not with me … I’m scared of that … Please be mine , only mine , forever … I need your love … only yours … it means so much to me … I may be not a good boyfriend … but give me a chance to become a good one , and then a great father … I just wish … our relation wasn’t fucked. Stupid actions of mine … Please babe … I wish everything is okay … Don’t hold back on anything , just tell me … I don’t like it when you keep things for yourself … everything to yourself … I’m not your friend … I’m your boyfriend , I need to know what happened to my lover. I’m there for you … just please … tell me anything … how you feel , what you did , what are you thinking … anything really … Babe … I love you soo much … I don’t want to feel like this . I want you to feel happiness , not sadness … please … just … be alright … hunny …