April 2011
5 posts
April 8th 2011 ...
So I was right … all this time … her feelings for me … have changed. It really did. You told me … that she didn’t feel the same it’s been 2 weeks. I’ve been having these weird feelings 2 weeks before … I was right … we are now on a break … I’m sure it won’t change a thing … we cried a lot … But still , I think...
Obvious
It’s getting more and more obvious. You don’t need me. You can be happy WITHOUT me. What I am doing still here? Am I just being dragged along ? I’m tired of this. I said to myself… show it to me that you care for me and you want to be with me. From what your actions means, you just don’t care anymore. I’m not worth fighting for now. We just keep filling...
4/5/2011
Job interview for Judy.
He was the last guy I wanted to see with her. I always told myself she wasn’t with him. Always had doubts. Now here I look, there he was with her. I didn’t want to see this. I think this is over. You’ve been lying to me. Fuck you. You better make things right. I’m tired of this. Siu was there. You tried to lied to me that he wouldn’t be there....
Seriously.
This is the truth. I fucken want to talk to you. I fucken want to settle things. I’m tired of being hidden stuff, I don’t even hide anything. You don’t speak up. You are lying to me. Tell me the truth. Is it going to stay like this? Or it’s going to change? I fucken want to change things and make things right. Only if you fucken want to help me and let’s do it...
Babe ...
Please … can we be perfect together again … ? I’m tired of being depressive … it seems like you start to care less and less … I hate it … you don’t care about me anymore … ? Babe … you know I love you so much … Sometimes I don’t talk to you … because I want to see how much you will miss me … how much you want...
March 2011
16 posts
Is it just me ?
I know when something bad is about to happen … your circle of friends will start changing. Now I see Andy has slightly changed. He doesn’t hang out with me anymore. Maybe he knows something you did ? And now you are acting so weird. this is simply too much. Sometimes, I feel like I could go on and nothing could stop me, and sometimes, I just think back , I’m worthless. What...
sometimes, we can't choose so we have to deal with...
Posted by Judy Diep.
What do you mean? I’m making myself some ideas.
Sometimes , I just feel like , you are not wanting to be with me. You say stuff to make me feel good. What about your actions ? You told me … I don’t want to leave you … I love you too much … I’ll see you more at school. What you do ? Nothing. Just talking. You saying you miss me when you are with your friends. Doesn’t look like it. You know it’s...
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When things just doesn’t add up , always weird things happening , something is up. I sense that … you are just going further and further away from me. I just don’t know anymore. What’s happening ? What I truly feel now, is that , you are just waiting for the perfect moment , to hurt me , to break with me. But now , you don’t have the courage yet. You want to find...
I feel like … I don’t seem important anymore when Siu is around. All your attention was to him and your best friend. It’s not that I want to be silent , it’s just that I felt left out. I didn’t walk with you guys because I know you will reject me when he is near. You guys seem so friendly together. Might as well become the best couple yeah ? That’s what...
Don't expect things too much, when things goes the...
21 March 2011
Fawk man , do we always have to end up being in small conflicts ? Wtf is this … Creating problems to get us in bad mood . EVERY FUCKEN SINGLE TIME. What’s wrong with you ? You really want us to be always in a bad mood ? Asking fucked up questions, want me to think about stuff. I tell you, you are doing quite well to get us in trouble. Seriously , I’m getting sick...
These past few days ...
I don’t know, I’m kind of getting tired of what you do. Maybe I did say that I would be ready for this and all. But now that I’m living it, I don’t want it. You being more with your friends , staying with me just on special dates or occasion … what’s the point of this relation ? I’m still glad that you care and come to me when you think I have...
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Conversations are less interesting. We always end up in silence mode. Having an evil aura, making things awkward. Asking real random questions. What will you do if your girlfriend is not a virgin? Are you being honest or what? It felt real, even if you tell me you are joking. You said you pretended that you hid stuff from me. Just to go along with the jokes. But did you really joke? I don’t know...
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT ...
I don’t feel loved … really … you have problems … you went to your best friend. And not to me. I’m your boyfriend … I can’t even know what’s between you and her … For a fact … judging by the facebook statuses you post … it’s all related to me. I know the past still hunts you … you are always hesitating to be with me forever or not. not even forever. Just to be with me for a long time. You told me...
4th March of 2011 ...
Bad news … I learned that my lover’s mother simply … doesn’t want to see me anymore , which means , not be with her … Judy Diep … I really am … in pain … I don’t know what to do now … I can’t let this relation go … She’s lost now … I’m asking her questions … What do you want deep inside … ? She says she doesn’t know … I want to be with her for the rest of my life … her being my wifey … I...
Our life is like a book , we never know what's...
… Posted by Judy Diep 2 march 2011. Ohh man … I just don’t even want to tell you how bad I am feeling when you wrote this. Hey .. my heart is pumping like crazy… Idk , I feel like , you are talking about our relation . We never know anything , but one day , it will end. I don’t want to … I want to keep writing this damn book with you. It will be incomplete, and our child will keep on writing in...
What ... ?
It’s so hard to tell if you are tired or mad … Even if you tell me you are tired, I feel like you are just telling me you are mad and simple don’t want to tell me. The way you answer me , the way you talk , that awkward silence. I simply don’t like it. I’m worried , you told me you got abused , and you had an evil aura when you asked me did you believe me i got raped ? I felt pressured ,...
Noticing ...
It’s slowly there … It’s approaching . I can feel it . Love is disappearing and it starts to be a fake relation now . I’m kinda annoyed . This is annoying , I don’t want this kind of relation . You start to get more busy . No more time for me . If you would really love me , real love , you will always have time for me . I don’t see that , AT ALL . I have lots of things to do , but when I have an...
Leaving.
You told me earlier … Leave me , or I’ll leave you . Well, I won’t leave you . I sacrificed a lot to be back with you . I won’t be the one who’s going to break it again . If you want to leave , it’ll be sad . Because … I really want you to stay FOREVER with me .
Teasing
Hey … I know you are always hurt … Every single day … I’m hurt too … But you come first . I know you are thinking that … I only want sex . Come on … You tease me … You should know how guys are . If you tease them , they would start getting sexual . But hey , if you don’t want me to behave like that , Just don’t show me and pull me into it . I don’t want to make you think I’m here for sex . I’ll...